Everything on the Line(part I)

Well I think most of you might ask a question what does the name of the topic means?

What does "everything on the line" mean? Well, It means a lot. Let's just take an example of John Adams who has been working in a software industry from past 3 1/2 years and has been very successful. His story was something different. It goes like this,,

Someday, somewhere down the line in a closed room on the top floor of an apartment holding a cup of coffee( Yeah, I know too much coffee is not good for health), all I could see was the light of every house going down, but find a few lights glowing. Well , there are a few people like me waking up all the night trying to complete the work that was assigned to them but finally end up doing nothing.
And this reminded me of the work that I have to do. I sat back in my chair, took my bag and tried to search for the document that was give to me by my Project Manager.

"I know, I know,Its here somewhere,Oh.. my bag full of trash. huh.. and finally I got that document. Well, looking at that document in a first glance reminded me of my history book. I opened the document and took a sip of coffee and that was my last sip. I felt like" Oh.. now I need to make one more coffee to wake me up a little more time and took that document along with me into my kitchen and started making coffee. I was trying to understand , poured coffee in my cup and went back to my chair. I sat in my chair and started reading the document. I felt like its something which is not English. I was trying to understand but my eyes are not supporting me. I finally closed the document and felt " Finally, This is what happens.(end up doing nothing)" .

I sat in my chair in a more relaxed way and bent my head back and looked at the clock "Its almost 2:00 AM and I haven't done anything yet. Let it be, I will try to get some time in office". There are a lot of questions going on in my mind at that time, which have no answers, which has been through many other people out there like me. " Is this what we always wanted to be?" "Is this the kind of life that we wanted to live? waking up late nights ?putting an end to enjoyment and trying to work for money sacrificing your satisfaction? But, there is no other choice, no one needs whether you are satisifed or not, the only thing that matters is whether you have done your work or not? This really reminds me of my school days where you are punished of not doing your home work. "

one thing now I really feel is " I wish someone comes in my life who encourages me, who boosts my confidence, who helps me and hold my hand together when I find that I am getting down. "the one who sow the seed of confidence and make my tree of life bloom with flowers of hope and fruits of success. I hope that day isn't far". I dont even know when I finally slept.

NOTE: This is just a part of it. I am going to continue it.