Why???

SOME QUESTIONS DON'T HAVE ANSWERS BUT STILL WE TRY TO FIND....


Yes....Some Questions don't have answers..But still we try to think about them and try to find a way to get answers, but what are we going to get from that... some more questions...some more kind of questions....and some more questions....all those questions which have one word in common "why??? " ..which itself doesn't have an answer...
you would have asked at some point of time in your life...

"why does it happened to me?"...The answer is simple because it has to...It's not that nothing happens to you and every other person around you has faced something..(what is this something???)....

you may not have asked yourself these kind of questions when you are around 10 years of age...so when does it actually start...who know?? Not even I.... I started asking these kind of questions when I was 16.... .16???

"O My God!!! What kind of problems do you have at that age which made you to think about these kind of question?" Well it doesn't depends on age....It depends on the maturity level to think ahead of what you have been through...

For Example, "you are 7 or 8 years old. Till that time you were the only one in your family and everyone used to love you a lot...and then comes a small brother in your family and everyone starts shifting their love to that baby. Now what's goes in your mind? What will be the state of mind of that 7 years old boy??And what does he do in order to get back everything that he used to possess?

There could be many instances in your life that you have seen at a very young age which have a strong impact on you and that makes you to grow a bit differently than the other people. Now, We can't just go and force them to say what they have been through and why are they in this state...? Can We....???
Really, Can We really make them speak ??? Can We?? The only thing I can say is "YES, You can...but not the way u used to behave with other people..but in a way that they don't get hurt and enjoy your company.....where he not only believes you but starts believing himself.

Now...you meet a lot of people around you who looks as if the whole world is on their shoulders and they are moving around with a lot of problems in thier pockets...and you get a way to meet one of those kind of people and how would your way of meeting goes on....

"Hello, I am.....How are you?
" I don't know How I am? Ask my heart...? "
"If your heart can answer..why would I answer you?...But do we say this on his face...No Way.." But we can ask him in a way that make him feel much better atlest for that instance of time he enjoys your company...and you don't need to force him to say about what he has been through... One day you will come to know about it... Then may be a Question starts of in your mind..
" Why does something like this happens to such a good person like him? "
"Why god has been so injustice to him? "

The kind of answer that came to my mind when I asked myself... " Its because god wanted him to help others who happens to be in the same state...and make them come out of it... because: When you learn from experiences...you learn in a much better way"

There are a quite different kind of people in this world who has been facing different kind of problems. Everyone has to find a way to find a away to overcome someday or the other rather than waiting for the problems to overcome you..and you start hating yourself and blaming god for not giving what you wanted and made you to go through this kind of Situation.... Now one(I think a few more) more question comes over her...
"Do we really have to blame GOD?"
"Do I have to blame myself for not overcoming this?"

or "Do I have to blame someone who is actually responsible for this..some person who has put you in this state...?"
What would be the answer...?? The answer again is a question which don't really have a right answer but still we try to answer(It depends on your mental state and your physical condition)..."Do we really have to blame??". "Why should we blame?" "Who gave us the right to hurt someone?" If you go on thinking like this you will find a large number of questions which doesn't lead to answers but to more questions...

There are again few other people who can't just handle this and try to end up their life just for one simple reason and one simple answer "I can't handle this anymore..." Again a few Questions....

"If you can't handle...what are we here for?"
"You should have told us and we would have helped you and find a way..." Now "do we have to wait for him to say or do we have to ask him what he has been through?"
"This thought comes in our mind only after something weird happens and a state where the extreme meets the ultimate"

Now...Believe me after all this kind of things happened and you go back home, sit and starts questioning.."Why GOD has been so harsh at him? " Now..
"Is he the only person who has been through that situation?" There are people who are experiencing much more than that and still able to stand and move ahead....

"Lot of Experiences...and lot of thinking...lots of learning....doesn't end up here....Because Every end give rise to a new Beginning...A Beginning which has an end but everything is revolving around circles as someone said.." True love may be in corners....But I am revolving around circles"..."

"Believe me...this is not the end...and believe me that this is not the end of yours..You could have given up everything...But their is someone who is holding everything of yours to give you back every single moment of happiness which you may not have imagined...And believe me I could be the first person to hold everything of yours..."
After writing all this kind of stuff....I am still left with a lot to write but...the point I am going to make here is these are all the kind of experiences that I have been through and the kind of company in which I was and used to be...


They just made me to learn a very good lesson..."no matter who you are...what is on your head that is wetting your toes....you still have to believe and keep faith in you...."

Because "GOD cannot be everywhere ...that's why he made a relationship called friendship...Do you know why it is called friendship....? Life is like an ocean where a friend is a ship who makes you reach your destination...even though he sinks...a part of him will be floating just to keep you alive and it means a simple message....."NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS....THE SHOW MUST GO ON...AND ITS IN YOUR HANDS HOW YOU MAKE THE SHOW MORE ENJOYABLE.."

Many more experiences...many more years to go ...and if you think this is the end....then it is the end of yours....I will just conclude it with one big statement of mine(the whole post is mine...:P)...

Does this means you need to stop questioning as you don't find any answers...?

"No....You have to question.....Stop questioning others and start questioning yourself what would you do when you are in such a situation...and start to find a way to resolve it....because there is lot of difference between solve and resolve...."

"YOU CAN'T SAY TO EVERYONE WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH AND WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH....

YOU CAN JUST NAME A FEW WHO CAN SIT BY YOUR SID HOLDING EVERY DROP OF TEARS JUST TO MAKE YOU REALIZE HOW PRECIOUS THEY ARE ...............AND SOMETIMES THOSE TEARS MAY NOT BE YOURS..."

THIS IS NOT THE END....BUT NOT TO ADD SOME PERSONAL EXPERIENCES....
BUT STILL I DEDICATE THIS POST TO ALL THOSE WHO HAS BEEN WITH ME NOT JUST HOLDING EVERY DROP OF TEARS BUT THEY MADE ME HOW PRECIOUS THEY ARE EVEN BEFORE THEY DROP......

AS I SAID EVERY END LEADS TO A NEW BEGINNING. AND EVERY BEGINNING HAS TO END...SOME DAY OR THE OTHER EVEN YOU ARE GOING TO DIE....

Memories.....

MEMORIES......

We all do have a lot of memories which we try to remember in every walk of our life. When we go to a particular place which you have already visited with your friends and had a lot of fun, you remember that ...we all came here before and start talking about it..right..

10 years of school life,2 years of +2,4 years of graduation..after all these 16 years of our education life,what did we achieve. Those all who have been beside us tapping our back,cracking jokes,being with us forever,enjoying life at fullest but still some day we depart. You don't feel that you are lost or depressed when you are along with your friends. When they are with you, you don't feel how important and precious they are. But, when you are awya from them, you miss them a lot,I have been through all that.

I am a kind of a person who look for friends whom you can live with. I don't know why?Everyone have a lot of friends. But only a few of them are so special that you try to be close to them and share all your feelings. I met a lot of friends in my whole 16 years of education. But there are only a few who have been so close to my heart,so close that I have shared all my feelings(both good and bad times that have been gone through).

10 years of my school education.I have changed around 3 schools,I guess and I had a lot of friends but very few who are so close which I can count on my fingers. NITHIN and KALYAN are the two best friends I had when I studied in Mamta High School, Secunderabad from IV class to VI class. We always used to sit together and used to had a lot of fun. Every Sunday I used to had my lunch at Nithin's house and he used to force me to eat Egg. I had no other option, I had to. Then I had to leave that school. At that age, I don't know what it means to depart from a friend. I met him again when I cam back to city after I completed my 10th class. After that I never felt that I have to move away from him again. Next time when I met him, It was after 6 years. Its on Jan 9, 2007 when I met him. And he still remembers that he used to force me to eat egg. I told him that I stopped eating egg but he didn't listen, he forced me again which made me remember of those days where we used to fight like this before. I never forget that day and will never forget .

When I completed my 6th, My father got transfered and we had to leave to Nagarkurnool(A small town in Mahaboobnagar District). I completed my later education there in Sharada High School. My first day was totally different. Everyone started asking about me. Because, I am the only new student over there. The rest of them have been there from past 5 years. I was too shy to mingle with them. I was very studious in my school days. But later on, I started to be close to them. Kiran,Vamshi,Sankeerth,Praveen,Sharma, Raghavendra,Shailendra,Pavan. Its like a cricket team. We were only 19 students in the class and we were the first batch to leave the school. There were only 4 girls in our class. Only 2 friends who have been close to me. Sharma and Swathi. I had a very serious encounter with Swathi which I never forget. And Sharma, The only one person who has been so close to me. One who used to share all his feelings. Never forget to have a friend like him and ready to do anything for him.

Swathi,Shilpa,Shlamite and Lakshmi are the only four girls in our class. And the only reason why they used to come to me is because of my notes. I always keep them updated. Swathi and Shilpa are sisters. Shilpa always used to come to my house for my notes. Thye were a bit close even to my mother. Whenever Shilpa comes, My mom used to say "yenti notes kaavaalaa???" :P. Swathi was the only girl who used to score and used to give us a bit of competition but we never allowed her to be on the top because of the competition among ourselves. One day I had a very serious encounter with Swathi. We had an exam and we have noted down all the questions and we were shifting places because we were not allowed to sit together. I didn't write one question and was asking one of my friend(Praveen ) about it. She came towards me and hit me on my head and said "yenti...copying gaa...intlo chadivi raavachhu kadaa"..I felt very angry and hit her on her head and said" ninnu adagaledhu kadaa".. After that never had a chance to meet her again but I met Shilpa , 1 year back. And now looking for a way to meet them again.

THIS IS THE WHOLE OF MY SCHOOL LIFE>>>
LOT MORE AHEAD TO WRITE ABOUT MY 10+2 AND ENGINEERING..BUT WRITE NOW NO TIME>>>

First Week At Satyam

FIRST WEEK AT SATYAM...

My first week at satyam was pretty good. To be more precise, Its Awesome. We joined on 29th January. We were taken to the convention center and we had an induction over there. It was from 8:30 to 7:00. A few videos of some of the prominent persons in satyam. Enjoyed the day a lot.Lots of friends, lots of activities and lots of jokes and We occupied last seats.

On Tuesday we had to come in formal with a tie and girls were asked to come in Saree or western formals. Girls look good in sarees:D. Few of them are too good with long hair. Next day we had an exam. The exam was on Data Structures & Algorithms, Operating System concepts and Database concepts. I got 63%. :D.

Training started from Wednesday. Data Structures & Algorithms by RaghuRaj was too good. The way he cracked jokes and get back to the concept . I volunteered to write on board so I was not given a chance to answer:(. We had a lot of fun in class. Cracking jokes, answering questions, asking questions, making fun of friends sitting beside me. Enjoyed a lot. BigB Rajan,Mahathi,Priyanka,Rajesh and Pradeep. We all sit together. Don't ask about the jokes...:D....

That's all for now.... Next week ahead may be there will be an exam on Monday...